When God says 'wait on me', he means it!

Why do we even try? Why do we think, in our insignificant human-ness, that we can do anything separate from God and His will and purpose for our lives?

I feel like Christian and I are realizing this truth more and more everyday. Not that we've ever tried to live without God, but that we've tried to do things on our own time. Let me remind you folks how exhausting of a task that can be! Last week I was feeling incredibly discouraged about my fertility. It's so silly, really. A month of trying to conceive is so not a long time, but between the doctor's visits and spending way too much time on web MD, my heart was beyond heavy. I almost wish I didn't have access to a computer so that I couldn't google every possible outcome! After talking to Christian about it and being open and honest about how angry I was feeling toward my body and how it wasn't cooperating, he sent this sweet email:

It is doing exactly what God wants it to do right now.

God has a plan for us babe. Stay faithful. You(we) are trying to have a baby on our time.. once we rely and trust God and he truly knows we are passionate about Him and His plan…. that’s when we will have a baby. When we aren’t even thinking about it cause we are so lost in our faith. When has he steered us wrong? Think about your past and how you can just laugh and see how god was working the entire time.

I love you babe. Don’t stress about things that God is in control of. He will take care of us. Stay faithful and pray.

How blessed am I? This totally applies to every aspect of my life lately. Things aren't necessarily going according to plan. We want to buy a house, but I feel like God has totally shut that door, at least for right now. I know that is a huge blessing in disguise.

On to the question...

List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how. 

1. My Mom. She has always put her husband and us kids first. She has instilled in me an appreciation for the time we get to have with our families. I can't think of anyone in the world I'm more alike than my mom; I look and act just like her! If I could be half the woman she is, I'd be so so blessed.
2. My Dad.What a man of God he is. He and my mom are two of the most selfless, self-sacrificing people on the planet. My dad cares more about the well-being of others more than any other person on the planet. He is humble, sweet, and hardworking. I knew I would marry a man just like him.
3. My sweet Husband. I know without a doubt that God answered some of my deepest prayers and pleas when it comes to Christian. My faith has never been so solidified as it has been since loving this man... for so many reasons.  He is the epitome of a Godly, selfless, humble husband. Like all marriages, ours is so far from perfect. It gets hard; I dream of pouring hot wax on his face (I'm crazy, I know); we fight and don't say the nicest things... but we get through it. We love each other, and we made a promise that we both vow to keep. I'm a lucky gal for him to put up with me!
4. My Nana. She is the sweetest, most caring and Godly woman I know. I can't imagine life without her.
5. Marcy. I have learned so much from this woman. She is my boss, my friend, and my mentor. Somehow God knew ;) exactly who I would need in my life the past three years. Through heartbreak, happiness, and sorrow, she has been there every step of the way. 
6. My mil Ruth. I don't know what it is about this woman, but her and I have always had a special connection. She has always been an advocate for Christian and I, even when we didn't want each other ourselves. She would email me and keep in touch with my family in the years that he and I went our separate ways. I am so thankful to have a Mother in Law that cares so much about me and my marriage to her son. Not to mention she is a Godly woman who has the biggest heart for other people. 
7. My sil Shelly. This woman has one of the sweetest love stories ever. I really can't get enough of it. Her and her husband Phil have been together forever. They are high school sweethearts who had the world against them in the beginning, but managed to stick together and come out of it all even more in love. They are wonderful parents to three babies. Well, not babies anymore, but you get the idea. Many of Christian's stories and childhood memories involve Shelly and Phil. I know that my brothers will feel the same about Christian... 
8. My fil John. Christian and I are so blessed to have this man as a father/father in law. He has fought for us and stood in the gaps where neither of us had the heart to. He and my dad stayed in contact and prayed over Christian and I more times than I could count. John loves me as his own, and I couldn't be more grateful.
9. My Aunt Kelly. She really has no idea she's on this list, but I look up to her so so much. She is a tad crazy, much like the rest of us Lozano's. She would do anything for her children, and adores her siblings. I love the relationship she and my mom have. I love that she lives so close (8 hours) that we see her more often than we used to with her in Vegas. I so wish that the rest of my dad's family lived closer. 
10. Brooke. Though she drives me crazy, and I often feel like the big sister who wants to ring the neck of the little sister, she really is my very best friend. I admire her confidence and the way she lights up the room just by being in it. Her parents and her friends think the world of her, and she doesn't even know it.

Since I haven't blogged in way too long, here's a quick recap:

Dad & C taking a Sunday nap. We still weren't allowed to change the channel.

In the Gap dressing room... haha.

Shopping with the boys and mom at the flea market!

Oh you know- Wayne & Garth for Halloween!

C & I on our 'special' trip to Gatlinburg. The picture doesn't do the view justice!
I know you want to see us kissing ;)

til next time.

xo

H

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1. List 20 random facts about yourself.
2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears. 
3. Describe your relationship with your parents. 
4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year old self, if you could. 
5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now? 
6. What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?  
7. What is your dream job, and why? 
8. What are 5 passions you have? 
9. List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how. 
10. Describe your most embarrassing moment. 
11. Describe 10 pet peeves you have. 
12. Describe a typical day in your current life. 
13. Describe 5 weaknesses you have. 
14. Describe 5 strengths you have. 
15. If you were an animal, what would you be and why? 
16. What are your 5 greatest accomplishments? 
17. What is the thing you most wish you were great at? 
18. What is your earliest memory?
19. If you could live anywhere, where would it be and why? 
20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood. 
21. If you could have one superpower, what would it be and what would you do with it first? 
22. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years? 
23. List your top 5 hobbies and why you love them. 
24. Describe your family dynamic of your childhood vs. your family dynamic now. 
25. If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?
26. What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?
27. What is your favorite part of your body and why?
28. What is your love language?
29. What do you think people misunderstand most about you?
30. List 10 things you would hope to be remembered for